Opening up to the truth of who we really are and finding out through our own experience, precisely as it is, called me. The instrument of inquiry challenging my structures within a field of presence. I could be suspicious while being on the journey. The combination of incredible refinement and subtlety in experiencing the many aspects of reality, the love for precision and discrimination, combined with a deep love and kindness for everything arising, allowing what is as completely as it already is. The vast body of knowledge. And more recently finding a deep freedom arising with the understanding and experience of the view of totality, taking away the last resistances thru it's non-hierarchical view of reality. I feel a deep love for the logos of this teaching, and enormous gratitude for iife itself in all its mystery.