I’ve learned to recognize and understand the many egoic structures. I’ve come to know and trust the intelligence and love with which Being manifests in all of us as we relax more and more into our true nature. I have learned, and am still learning, that I’m not a separate self that needs to live a life according to old expectations, ideas and beliefs. I’m an expression (as we all are) of something endlessly mysterious and continue to expand in trusting, exploring, and living that mystery.
I absolutely love the practice of inquiry. I can't imagine living life without it. I love teaching it and keep discovering ever more subtle levels of openess, not-knowing, curiosity and allowing.
My husband was a student in de Ridhwan school five years before I started and I could really sense how the work changed him. He taught me inquiry. Right from the start this became a powerful practice for me. It made me feel guided. The presence of Basic Trust became very palpable and important; I started to sense the deep unconditional loving holding in the work and then I knew where I needed to be!
It is a long-term spiritual path oriented towards exploring the truth. There is no goal in this exploration. The love for finding out who and what you are is needed and will fuel your motivation along this journey with all its ups and downs.
I've written a book about the process around fertility problems and the grief following definite childlessness. This book is only available in dutch and called 'Onzichtbaar Verlies'.